(FUNKY RETRO MUSIC) - WOMAN ON TV: 'This is a COVID-19 announcement. 'New Zealand is moving to Alert Level 4 at 11.59pm tonight.' - Fuck, have to go buy some ammo. - 'This will save lives.' - Can't wait till she's old enough to get her own 22. - So, COVID-19 hit, which was quite a shock. It's very, very empty, the streets. It's frightening to see that this is actually happening right now. Even Mt Taranaki's in isolation. It's quite scary because everyone's at home, while here's me, on the front line, having to do my job, be surrounded by people that may possibly have it. - # Oh-oh, apple pie bed... # - Lockdown has been pretty hard. I've been helping out, helping babysit the kids. - # Apple pie bed... # - But they drive me insane sometimes. - There we are. - You're welcome. My family's different. But they're a good different. - I honestly didn't believe it was gonna land on my doorstep. I didn't think it was actually going to hit my town. I didn't think it was gonna change my life at all. I'd say the time off and the isolation let you value some of the smaller things in life. (TATTOO GUN BUZZES) - You're a twin? - Yup. - What!? - Brave. (CHUCKLES) I definitely think I've got my life on track... somewhat. (LAUGHS) But, yeah, I've got a lot to figure out. I'd say we're quite different. He's into all of the gang shit. (CHUCKLES) - # Apple pie bed # Apple pie where my body's made of lead. # - WOMAN: Good boy. Good man, I'm sorry. Good boy. - Ow, fuck. - Yep. - 'I decided to get the COVID test because obviously I'm an essential worker 'and I don't want to catch anything.' Oh wow. - And done. Sorry about that. - That's alright. - Are you ok? - I'm taking youse to court (!) - Fair enough. - (BOTH LAUGH) - Ow! That hurt! Fuck, that shit hurt. (CHUCKLES) I mean, it went up my nose, but I've already had other things penetrate it, so, yeah, it's alright. (DOG BARKS) Had a rude one that I served the other day. This customer was moaning about, 'There's no salt, there's no pepper, there's no flour! 'I went to every supermarket here and they've got nothing! How is that possible?' And I walked past her, cos I was a bit annoyed, and I said, 'That's because all you customers buy it all.' - (BOTH CHUCKLE) - 'That's why we run out of stock.' Other woman comes up. 'You're gonna have to stand behind the green line.' And then she goes, '(SIGHS)'. And then I'm just like... - (LAUGHS) - Beep! And just staring at her. 'Oh yeah, I'm gonna fuck you up, bitch.' Beep! 'But I'm gonna lose my job.' - (BOTH LAUGH) - You weren't really funny when you were little. You were... - ...annoying. (CHUCKLES) - No, you... You were full of beans. - I was a hoha. - You were full of beans. - Hyperactive. - No, you didn't like staying inside. You were an outdoor kid. - Yeah. - Then you grew up and then you sorta hung out with a lot of girls, your mates. You were more` - I remember you said I was supposed to be a girl when I was born. - You were meant to be, cos I used to dress you in pink, with a little bit of lemon going on there on the side too. - I think I got dropped, that's why I'm gay. Nah. - (BOTH LAUGH) - Like... 'Oh fuck! Rainbows.' I'm really happy that we made it through it. Civilisation as we know it is coming back to its normal stages. (WAVES CRASH) - I was looking for work during Covid. Sorta keeping my ears open. I'd received a phone call from a very good guy. He was kind enough to give me a job through the ending of the Covid. - They don't make 'em like they used to, thank goodness. - It's still a gem, though. - It actually does stop all right. - Does it? Doesn't wrap on or lock the wheels or anything? - Nah, nah. Yeah. - That's quite a bit of gap there, eh? - Probably hasn't had a service since 1978. - Chur. Gonna do a bit of a brake check mate, and call it good. (AIR HISSES) - Quite good to blow the dust off the work boots and get into gear and go to work. (WHIRRING) Does the new guy shout the piss? - Yup. - Oh, I see how this works now, eh. - What do you think we got you here for? - 'I am working, but I'm not working towards a career.' That's more gooderer. 'I like being a free spirit.' (WHIRRING) 'I love the challenges. I love a new job, 'but I just don't think I'm ready to plant my feet in concrete yet.' Sick, dog. (BEEP! BEEP!) Do I make you horny, baby? (DRILLING, WHIRRING) - Stick with me and you'll learn. - Some people are quite happy doing the same thing everyday, all day. I want stories, man. I wanna taste the world, eh. I just` I want to see it all, the whole lot of it. There is just so much out there, man. I hear it calling, and I reckon I'll shine. Let's try it. That must be up. - Up. Down. - There we go. Up! (BEEPING) - There's nothing at all here now. - No! - What have you done to it? - I'm hearing a weird noise. Keep pushing that brake. Like, it's broken. (METALLIC TAPPING) I can hear your foot. - Who said we should bleed the brakes? - Might actually have to whip that off, pop the piston out, eh. - Nah, it'll be buggered. - What do you mean? - Nah. Is it stuck down? - Yeah. - Yeah, so we'll bugger the seal. We'll need to rebuild. Yep. Game over, insert coin. - We could pressurise the top a bit. - I'm not gonna trust it. We're not gonna send this out with a potential brake issue. - Yeah. - Looks like a job for tomorrow, man. (DRILL WHIRRS) - Mm. Call it. It is beer time. - Thank you for breaking that (!) (LAUGHS) - Hey, no, any time. I can do that. I had a partner that done the same thing. Like, she just got the bug, and she was like, 'I just have to go.' And watching her travel, it was like, 'Holy shit.' If I could turn back time, I woulda jumped on the plane with her. Such a beautiful woman. Like she's absolutely amazing. And like we had a real strong relationship and a real good bond. Sometimes life just throws you a curveball that fucks everything up. Cos when she left, I changed. And I just went ugly, man. I just didn't care about people. I started day drinking. I'd come home from work and drink, and the drugs and shit. I just didn't give a fuck. I didn't care about people's feelings. Man, that tore me inside out. For some weird reason I was like, 'Dad will fix this,' you know? Growing up, the old man hasn't been around. I don't know what actually made me think to reach out to him. But something did. I said, 'I'm in some shit. And it's over a woman and I cant deal with it. It's wrecking my mind state.' Hope you drink Double Brown. (POP!) And I got a reply. 'Because of the toxic situation, I've chosen not to get involved.' I just wiped him, dude. Like, mate, that was a big reach out, eh. Like, just, it bring anger and frustration. I went from being confused to wanting to punch him over. Deadly. I can't' believe that happened. I believe we all have voices in our head. It's just whether we wanna listen to them or not. And the voices in my head are telling me to, 'Pack your bags, sonny!' (LAUGHS) Todd has FOMOODD too. Fear Of Missing Out On Domino's Deals can affect anyone, but there is a cure. Download the Domino's app to get a new deal every day. Plus a free large pizza with your next delivery order. (UPBEAT MUSIC) - Oh God, I'm nervous. 'I haven't seen John in weeks because of Covid.' Oh no. 'Gutted about that, cos I was locked in the house.' Oh shit! - (LAUGHTER) - WOMAN: There you go. - Hi! - Oh, come here. - Yeah, all right! - How are you?! - Hello. - Hello! - Come on in. Puppy's here! - Oh, puppy! Hello! - Does somebody want a coffee? - Do you want coffee? - Oh, yes, please. Oh, thank you. - There you go. You'd die for coffee. - I'm stoked that Jordyn's found someone, especially John. He's really gentle. Their dynamic is, um... I think only known to them. - You're here. - (LAUGHS) Finally. - Finally. - What do you wanna do? - Well, we could take` - Go for a walk. - Go for a walk or something. Get a coffee or something. - Yeah, take puppy for a walk. Eh, puppy? - Maybe have dinner together at my house. - Yeah. - Yeah? It's a date, then. - Yeah. - Yeah! (LAUGHS) Hey! Just... Oh! - (LAUGHS) - Except for that one! (UPBEAT PIANO MUSIC) - Oh, after a while, Jordyn came along and it was.. I didn't know her much then, and slowly became friends, and over time we got closer. And then one day I found out that she actually needed a boyfriend. - So cute. Oh my God, heart wrenching. I tapped into her Facebook. I'm so sneaky. And there was a message on there asking Jordyn to be his girlfriend. And she instantly threw her hands up on her face. She said, 'Oh my God, I like him too. I wanna be his girlfriend!' (GIGGLES) - Puppy wanna go walk? - Ah, walkies! - (CHUCKLES) Calm down. Hey, puppy! - Hey, what are you doing? We were hanging out, and in the end he wanted to kiss, and I said, 'OK, we'll do that then. OK! Feels comfortable to me!' So, yeah, and then that was the first kiss I had. We can go through the shortcut, eh, guys? - Yup, sounds good. - I wanna move out and be independent. And hopefully he gets a job somewhere. Like, it can be a clothing store. It can be Rebel Sport, or it can be anywhere. I keep telling him and he says, 'Oh, I'll sort that out later.' (PENSIVE GUITAR MUSIC) (MOTORISED WHIRRING) - There's some big changes coming up for me. My mum and my dad are moving, and I'm going to be moving into their house. (PHONE LINE TRILLS) - MAN: Hello. - Hey, can you come help me pack my clothes to move house? - Yeah. - Are you gonna come now? - Yeah, I'll be there in like... - OK, cool. Thank you so much. See you soon. Bye. - Is Russiaan coming over? - Yeah, he is. He's going to help me go through my clothes and pack them. I've really enjoyed living here. It's been cool as. Breeze has helped me tone down a little bit, cos I was real bad drinking and everything before I moved in here. - And when you get homesick out there, you can just come back here. (LAUGHS) - Yeah, I wonder if it will work that way. I don't know. Probably will. Pretty sad. - Man, I'm not gonna cry. - Nah. One last doodle on the couch. - (BOTH CHUCKLE) - I'm not really good with emotions. I just cry to myself. And I'm not even good at dealing with other people's emotions, so how am I supposed to deal with my own? We might have to keep this chair forever, eh. - Yeah. (GIGGLES) - Hey ho. - Hey, Russiaan. - Hey, this is Tione. - Hi. I'm Louise. - This is Louise and Breeze. - So what, are you guys like dating? - No. - (LAUGHTER) - Just... chilling. - Just hanging out. - Just hanging out like friends. - Yeah, for now. - Ooohhhh! - (LAUGHTER) - For now! - Cute. - He wants to make it exclusive. - Do you? - But I haven't made` I haven't` - Eventually. - (LAUGHS) Shall we go move your shit? It's just your clothes, eh? - Yeah. - OK, I'll throw out the ugly ones. Bye, bitch! See ya! Let's go! - (LAUGHTER) - This is all ugly clothes, oi. - (LAUGHS) - Big girl tings. - (LAUGHS) Fuck up! - So I met Russiaan clubbing in New Plymouth. I think I was wearing a puffer jacket and, like, trackpants, and I was like quite, like, intimidated, cos it's Russiaan. Oh my God. Look at these. - (LAUGHS) What the fuck is this? - Oh yeah, nah, that's... - This little white girl just comes running up to me. I didn't know her from a bar of soap. She runs up to me and gives me the fattest hug, like, 'Hey, I'm Louise!' And I'm like, '(SUCKS LIPS) What, bitch?' Nah. 'I'm Russiaan.' What are you doing with yourself? - Um... - Talking to anybody? - Uh... - Any... body? - Little bit. Only for a couple of days. - Is it a boy or a girl? - A boy! Jesus! - (LAUGHS) - Yeah, I love Louise. She's pretty cool, but she doesn't really like to express herself. - We'll keep it on the low, eh? (LAUGHS) 'Louise is just... Louise.' I do love this. This is so cute. - Russiaan brings out the bad bitch. (LAUGHS) Nah. That might fit you. - (LAUGHS) Fuck off! - No, no! I just love him. He's cool as. - I work at a aluminium factory. I hate it. I absolutely hate it. Like, it's so continuous and tiring, just doing the same thing over and over and over again. It just gets so boring. And the people definitely don't make it easier. (CHUCKLES) Growing up in Waitara was definitely a bit of a struggle, because people often bullied me. But, yeah, I feel like the moment that I finally accepted who I was and loved myself for who I am, nothing else really mattered. I didn't care about it anymore. (UPBEAT MUSIC) Everyone's opinion that they had of me just literally went right out the window. All the emotion that I feel I can get out through dance, whether it be anger, sadness, just anything that I'm feeling at the time, it will all come out. (UPBEAT MUSIC CONTINUES) I definitely think that I've got my life on track... somewhat. (LAUGHS) But, yeah, I've got a lot to figure out. (AMBIENT PIANO MUSIC) - (WHISTLES) I'm a shearer and a musician, and a bit of a part-time farmer. There you go, Mush. Jumpy, eh? So I mainly shear sheep during the weeks, and then play gigs on the weekend with my band, the Bushbuds. (LAUGHS) (SQUELCHING) Hey, you're starting to fill out a bit, eh, boy? Your head's getting fat too. Here, Jeb! Have a little lease block with about a hundred or so sheep. (SHEEP BLEAT, DOG BARKS) And we're getting by at the moment. (RATTLING, SHEEP BLEAT) That'll do! You can come straight out of school and get straight into the industry. By the time you're sort of shearing 150, 200 hundred sheep a day, you're making a decent income. 400, 500 bucks a day. Yeah, there's not a lot of guys going on to that. (SCRAPING) There is some days when you can go to some deep, dark places when you're just there shearing by yourself in your own head. (MOWER STARTS UP, WHIRRS) Three hours to go, there's another mountain of sheep in front of you. (SHEARER BUZZES) Sometimes I'm thinking about women. Sometimes I'm thinking about music. Sometimes I'm thinking about the sheep as I'm shearing it and trying to stay focused. But I've been single for two and a half years now. I've had a couple of girlfriends and that, but, you know, if it was love, it would've worked out and she still would've been here, you know? I feel like it'd be pretty challenging to fit a woman in my life at the moment. Not that I'm not looking, but it's sort of like` that's like the lines in one of my songs, you know? Um, 'I don't have the time to hang around and wait for you, but I can't wait for you,' as in I'm looking forward to meeting her as well. Wherever she is, wherever she may be at the moment. Yeah, yeah. 'But, yeah, I never know. I might go to my next gig and meet my wife or something like that, you know? 'At one of the woolsheds.' Coming in hot, mate. Farmer's daughter or something like that. That'd be good. (LAUGHS) But we'll see. Ultimately I wanna have a nice farm. I don't want a block; I want the block. Same as you don't want any woman; you want the woman. Yeah. (CHUCKLES) Oh, it's gonna be a mean day. (DOGS BARK) That'd be another thing I want on my farm, actually. I want a farm that has a venue on it. Lock A paddock up and we can build a stage in it and have a rave. And dance all night, really, and then head back to work on Monday. That's` That's living the dream, really. Well, for my dream anyway. (CHUCKLES) (UPBEAT DANCE MUSIC) - Come on! - Come on! - Whoa, whoa, whoa! - Get out! Why are the dogs down here, Paige? - Because they followed us down here. Nanny, she's intense, but she's great. - Try to make things the normal, and when you change them around, they go, 'Something's up.' - Sorry. - So I want you to walk straight out that way. Away you go. Straight out. Don't stop. No, no, Paige, leave the gate. Just keep walking. Take them out to the paddock so it's normal. - Nanny's been teaching longer than I've been alive. She's just an amazing teacher, but she's right all the time. When I fell off, it's was cos I wasn't looking where I was going. I was looking at the ground. When I broke my arm, Nanny was like, 'You shouldn't of done that! This is your fault!' Have you had a broken bone before, Nanny? - Nope. - I thought you broke your wrist. - No, I broke my finger when I was 8 playing bullrush. - Oh. Sometimes I don't know how to deal with it. I'm just like, 'Why can't I be right for once?' (CHUCKLES) Well, then you obviously didn't break something. - Yeah, but I didn't fall off. The horse fell and rolled on me. - Right. She's strict, but she's also taught me a lot about life and just how to deal with... just, everything. (PLAYS SOLEMN TUNE ON KEYBOARD) I've struggled with anxiety a lot. And Nanny, she's kind of the person who snaps me out of it and doesn't let me think about it. - That's pretty. When did you do that one? - This morning. (CHUCKLES) - So, got a lot of effort. So... - I wrote` - You've got words for it? - Yeah. - Can I look at them? - If you can read my handwriting. - READS: 'Sunday morning, you're in my bed. I keep thinking about the words that haven't been said. 'Going round and round in my head. 'But I can't let my emotions get out of control, 'cos we'll break apart and I don't want to let you go.' - (CHUCKLES) - 'You hold me close as I cry into your arms, 'and you don't ask cos you know life gets hard. 'And people try and tear us apart, 'cos they know I always fall hard at the start. 'I can't let you go, so please don't break my heart. 'So please don't break my heart.' Talk about... a bit depressing, woman. - It's not depressing. It's... - Yes, it is! You can't call that happy. - Well, it's not sad. It's just.. not letting too` your feelings control something good. - Don't let feelings overwhelm you. - Yeah. - OK. Because the way I read it, it sounded depressing. But no, that's cool. It's cool. But you know me, it's words. - I think this song was about, like, me and Joseph, kind of, cos I've had lots of people try and tell me that we weren't gonna work and stuff, and I'm kinda scared that it's... - A good thing might be too good? - Yeah. (CHUCKLES) And, I don't know, I think that writing a song will hopefully help me just get over it. - Get rid of the fear? - Yeah. I'm kinda just worried that it's not gonna stay good for long. - Gotta think about how strong you are, compared with what you were. When everybody else has gone away, who's left? Yourself. And if it's meant to be, it will happen. - Yep. - Do your next song about what you're grateful for. Because it will help lift your spirits. It's easy to go down. It's hard to stay up. - (CHUCKLES) - Catch you later. - Bye. - Bye, honey. - Bye. - CHUCKLES: How's your love life? - Hey, I'm still single. (CHUCKLES) - Yeah, cos you have shit taste in men. - No! (LAUGHS) I'm picky. - Well, you can't be picky when you're picking men like that, because the last guy hurt you, didn't he? - That was just more of an emotion. Yeah, I felt` I felt hurt. Cos it's something that I've never experienced, which is love, to fall in love with someone. - That means you got your heart broken. So you know how you said you were, um, depressed that time? I needed to tell you that it wasn't really depression. It was more of a heartbreak. - Yeah. - Cos I know, because I have depression. - It was a heartbreak. - It sorta feels that way when you like someone like that. - Yeah. No, it was a heartbreak. - Yeah, it was a heartbreak. - It was a fuckin' heartbreak! I just wanna get drunk. - But you'll find someone in the right time. - I need to stop looking. - Yeah, you're a looker. That's what I was just gonna say. Stop looking for` - Where's my man?! - So you just need to wait. - I like that. Nobody's perfect. Eden, she's my best friend. Yeah. We've been friends for like 18 years, so going on 19 next year. Me and Eden got matching tattoos. She wanted to get best friend tattoos in reembrace of Para. That's friendship. She passed away recently. Para is a relative/friend who is close to Eden and myself. - Cos you don't think, you know, you're gonna lose someone close to you like that, you know, somebody that your` in your every day life, and Para was somebody that I went and had a coffee with, that the kids had play dates with, and all of a sudden she's not here. - Remember that video that we seen of her when she's taking shots and playing cards and dices. - Mm-hm. Yeah. - Fuck, she was drinking hard out top shelf, living her best life, and then boom, she just didn't wake up. - Makes you... yeah, appreciate things a lot more when you lose someone close to you like that. She would love that we got these. - Hard out. - That our bond was everlasting. - Well, I ain't losing you, cos I can just look at my fucking arm and go, 'Here she is. She's here.' - Yeah, I couldn't imagine living without you, so this is a bit inspirational. - Ew, shush. Don't make me cry. - Whoa, that's so... - Thank you for being a part of my life, you stupid cunt. - My girl. Love you. - But I'll tell you what. I'll always be the Beyonce. (BOTH LAUGH) - You're the Rihanna! - Yeah! - # Lost my way, but now I know # I gotta find a love of my own # Like some art, baby, ooh, I'm feeling... # - Oh, look at him! Look at his big bulge! - Told you. Beautiful, eh? - Selfie. (CAMERA CLICKS) Oh, that's so... (HIGH VOICE) great! That's so good! We'd be a great couple. - We'd be a great couple. - (BOTH LAUGH) - We would be. You decided to like other things, so... - Can you get off the road, please? Why did she just park there? - Cos she probably owns it. - That's where the` That's where all the cows and that used to shit. - Well, not no more. That's where all the rich people shit now. - (BOTH LAUGH) - Hi. Hi! - # Things seem a little dull now # I lost the spark in my life, I'm trying to run now # and I'm feeling so low, so low, so low... # - (CHUCKLES) 'Yeah, she's my best friend.' - You've got no groove at all. - I've got ass, cunt. Fuck up. 'Yeah, she can be a bitch, but, you know, we can all be bitches. (LAUGHS)' (UPBEAT DANCE MUSIC) (DISTANT SIREN WAILS, TRAFFIC HUMS) - I've been in Melbourne for almost five years now. I grew up in Waitara. People say, 'Go and do well over there. Don't come back home.' (LAUGHS) - OK, make sure that your gaps are` Come closer. Come closer, Sian. - Melbourne is a lot different to Waitara. Back home it's just chilled and everyone knows each other, everyone's family. Melbourne is mad. (LAUGHS) I do part time modelling and not a lot else. (LAUGHS) I use my Instagram to sorta promote body positivity and self confidence and self love. My mum is, like, my number one photographer. If you're not uncomfortable doing a pose, you're doing it wrong. - That's right. (CAMERA CLICKS) - Posture! - I'm 21 right now, and the future is scary. I do feel very lost sometimes, and I think, you know, I look at other people and go, 'Wow, they're doing so amazing,' you know? - So I want you to go out there and hold your heads up high. - When people go, 'Oh, you know, blah-blah, you're living in Melbourne. 'You must be doing so well,' I do tell them what it's really like. (LAUGHS) At the start, I kind of was like, oh, when people ask me what I do, 'Oh, I'm a cleaner.' But, yeah, cleaning's just what I do, and that's how I make money. - I want you to think about that happy moment in your life. So I want you to go to that place, that happy place. - I was 17 when I moved to Melbourne. My parents kicked me over to live with my auntie. I was getting into a bit of mischief as a kid. - I want you to think about the happy moment, because it's a huge moment for you. When you have happiness, your eyes change. You changed as soon as I said that. - Rynasha got to about 16 where she thought she was the boss... and that she could do what she wanted. So that's when the struggle started. Yeah. - So it's face-off time, ladies and gentlemen. - I kinda went into a dark hole. I did hurt a lot of people in the process. - I was trying to be strong for so long. She posted something on Facebook when I` I lost it. And, yeah, it was pretty rough. So all I wanted to do was get her out of the situation she was in and get her into a brighter one. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. - (SIGHS) Mm... I'm a completely different person to the person I was back home, I think. I was in a really, really sort of depressed state. You have to really dig deep to get out of a place like that, but I've managed to do it, and... I'm quite proud of myself. Oh, yep, 17, 16-year-old me, I just wanna go up to you and go, 'What are you doing?!' (LAUGHS) 'Listen to your mum!' (LAUGHS) - From where she's been to where she is now, we knew it was the right decision. Yeah, the plan worked. Yeah. - Me and Mum are really close now. (CAMERA CLICKS) She's my Instagram photographer. (LAUGHS) (REFLECTIVE MUSIC) (WET TRAFFIC HUMS) (BIRDSONG) (REFLECTIVE MUSIC) - Thanks, brother. (UTENSILS SCRAPE) OK, I give this dish 10/10 with colourfulness. 'Home life for me is just me and my little sister, Javada.' If I was a dish, this would be me. 'And my grandparents. I have a twin brother. His name's Jarn. He was always my protector. Anybody that bullied me, he would always be the first to the scene. He wouldn't let anybody touch me, wouldn't let anybody tease me. As we've got older, we've kind of separated and gone our separate ways. He's like all hearty gangster, and I'm kind of, like, trying to be high class but also humble. Nan told me that Jarn was calling. She said he was crying. Saying he wanted to come home. Jarn was living with us too, but he had to move away as he was getting into too much trouble with all the gang shit. Bon appetit. (CHUCKLES) Me and my nan are like best friends also. We tell each other everything. Yeah, so I was gonna call Jarn tonight. - Yeah? - Have you talked to him recently? - I talked to him this afternoon. - What did youse talk about? - (CHUCKLES) - Um, youse going shopping cause he's manage to save` save some money. - 'Save'. - (LAUGHTER) - Cos he's got no friends. What if he came back here? - I don't want him to come back here yet. He's all right down there. - Mm. - I think he was just on the verge of getting patched. He thought that was... the life he wanted, you know? It was drugs, drink... You know? It was the gang, red and black. He just pushed all his other mates to the side. And in the end, I said, 'You want to be like that, you're not staying here.' And it hurt me more, kicking him out, telling him to go. At least you can have a straight conversation. - A normal conversation. - Normal, yeah. - Mm. - Glad that he left. - Hard. He's so hard to keep track of, but, yeah, when we talk, it's kind of a good little catch up. But it would be totally different if it was in person. He drives me fucking crazy. (BLIPPY ELECTRONIC MUSIC) I'd like to say we're close, but there's just some things in our lives that separate us from wanting to become closer. - (LAUGHTER) - What's up? - Do a pose already. - Turn your phone the other way around. - Hi, dear. - Hi, son. - What have you been up to? (LAUGHS) Do you miss home? - Oh, don't say that. - JARN: Fuck, youse look sexy. - JEVANA: I know. - Why have you cut your hair? - Nah, Bana gave me a baldy at the start of lockdown. - Get ya fades. - Yeah, skin bald. - Have you got any more tats? - Yeah, I wanna get my throat finished, right up to my ears, cos I know you want that, but I'm gon' beat you to it. (LAUGHS) - Got a six pack yet? - (LAUGHTER) - Whoa-ho! - Now that's the Jarn we used to know. - Yeah, Marvin. - (LAUGHTER) - See ya. - Love you, Jarnie. - Bye, love you. - JARN: Yeah, love youse. See ya soon. - Asshole. - Love you. - Kia kaha. Be safe. - See ya. - Love youse. Bye, Gran. Bye, Poppa! - Fuck, have to go buy some ammo. - 'This will save lives.' (UPBEAT GUITAR MUSIC) - Been hunting as long as I could walk. We love the meat and all that, but it's not it all. It's part of it. You get it, you get it. You don't, you don't. That's why it's called hunting, not catching. I work in forestry. Logging. Oh, I fuckin' hate working. If I could hunt every day, I would. (BASSY SYNTH MUSIC) (PANTING) Normally hunt with my brother, Keanu Reade, and our other mate, Chad. Oh, pretty sure they named Keanu after Keanu Reaves. We don't normally talk much. Just fucking into it. (PANTING) (DOG YELPS) Pig in the river. (BOAR SQUEALS) - Little boar. - Nice little boar. - Good eater. - Quite fat. Good one for the pot. It is good to catch real big ones, but they taste like shit. You have your wild pork roast and chops, but it's good to have something different. You get sausages made and saveloys and patties, salamis. And that's all I've never eaten. (INSECTS HUM) When I was growing up, you'd never ever see girls hunting. I don't fucking care. My daughter, she'll end up being a hunter too. Can't wait till she's old enough so I can take her out, and she can shoot her first gun. Get her own 22. (REFLECTIVE SYNTH MUSIC) I've known Finn for 10 years now. Went to school with him, and we've gone and done lots of hunting. Got on the piss. - MAN: Hey, Porky! - MAN: Up to? - Old Tyrone, he's a pretty gruff little joker, eh. Like, I wasn't expecting him to have a missus and then have a kid straight off the bat, straight out of school sort of thing, but, yeah. And, yeah, he's doing well too. - Gotta read him a story every day, and throw them a ball, and sing them a song. Make sure you do that. - Just give them a gun and away you go. - (LAUGHTER) - Gotta fuckin' start them young. - Yeah. - It'll be a pig hunter either way. - Fuck yeah. - Either way. Yeah. Shall we have another quick jam and then head off to Freddy's? They're already gonna be cooking when we get there. - They were cookin' when I left. - (LAUGHTER) - The old man's in the band. He's the main harmonica man. Dad's like my best mate as well. You know, I'm as good a mates with my dad as I am with any of the boys. (BAND PLAYS BLUES ROCK) I don't have to not be myself around him. You know, I can do` I tell him about everything. I think it's the way to do it, really. (SINGS UPBEAT MELODY) He's happy to slot in with what we're doing, because he's done that shit with his mates when he was young and he's just enjoying the ride again. He gets to go round again, you know? (BAND PLAYS BLUES ROCK) I guess we just party at people's houses. The boys have got a house the group tends to congregate at. Yeah, we just usually piss up there. - Number... - MEN: '...one!' - Number... - '...one!' - (MAN SHOUTS) - 'Hoo-ha, hoo ha-ha!' - Harder we drink, the harder we go! - 'Hoo-ha, hoo ha-ha!' - Who are, who are, who are we? - 'We are the boys of Taranaki! Hoo-ha, boomfa! 'Peel your foreskins back-ah!' (CHEERING, LAUGHTER) - Oh, sorry, neighbours. - Oh-ho-ho-ho! - It's not so much getting together and drinking piss and staying up all night. Yeah, like, we'll come together for the energy you get off the boys and the support. You know, it'd be a fuckin' lonely world without your mates. This is what we do on the reg, but it's mean. It's a congregation of good people, like straight up. 'You've gotta make the most of it. I sort of make the most of it for people that can't, you know. 'Like people that are working all the time, or people that aren't here any more. 'The boys that never made it, you know, you've gotta keep living it up for them.' Boom! - Saturday is for the boys. It just flows man. It can be anything. And just good banter, man. Look at that bulge, though. Holy. Fuck, you'd have to be stupid to get a dick tattoo on you, eh. - (LAUGHTER) - Yeah, Paddy's got a dick tattooed on him. One of his mates said he'd call him a bitch for the rest of his life if he doesn't get a dick tattooed on his arm. There's no way he's gonna stand for being called a bitch, so... - Five years before I finally got a cover up done. Maori tough boy sticker over top. I've become Dick Arm for a long time. - It's not a professional dick, though! It's a fucking rocket ship. - So, yeah, the me and Katie, we had a bit of drama going on and a bit of tension there. When things were real good, we got on so well, but... I guess it's just different paths. - MAN: Oh, well, that was pathetic. - MAN: Oh, that was crack up. (FIRE CRACKLES) - MAN: Whole can. - MAN: I remember my first beer. - Katie has two young kids, and that's what she's really wanting ` is someone to make a future with. You know, to really settle down and be the one. And I'm afraid that it's not me. Like, she's a beautiful person, and I do really like her, but, um, I'm not ready to be a` a father role model, you know? And I didn't really have one to teach me as I was growing up too, so that's where the stress is, is it's` it would be a different future if I'd stayed with her. - KATIE: I can't walk. It's freezing. - You need some trousers. - Mm. - Yeah. Mum jeans. - CHUCKLES: Mum jeans. No. - Yeah. Yeah, it will be cold. I'm keen to stay inside, I suppose. Weirdo. - You're a weirdo. (LAUGHS) (HIP HOP MUSIC PLAYS) - (LAUGHTER) - (HUBBUB) - 'I fully wasn't ready for a relationship. I shouldn't have got into it. 'I shouldn't have hurt such a young girl, to be fair.' You'll be fine. - Just leave by myself then. Stop moving away. - Well, I'm trying to do my thing too. - I know, but I don't know anybody. - 'So, yeah, I've chosen to just` to part ways and see where fate takes me, really. Yeah.' And now that I've, like, sat back and thought about it,... I miss the Axle that was here when Eillish was here. She's powerful, cos she believes that I was put here for a reason. I'm here, and that's allowed me to believe that I'm here for a reason, and I need to go and find that. And, hey, it ain't in Waitara. Nah. - # You can't push me into feeling bad # Don't entertain the overplayed # and overstated thoughts # you're letting out. # # Every time you are around... # - You know, if I'm gonna piss up and stay up all night, all weekend, then it's sweet as, as long as you go to work on Monday and mahi hard. I think for shearers especially, we work so hard during the day that to let off a bit of steam... The only thing is if you play hard, you've gotta work hard the next day, cos there's no room for slacking off, sort of thing. Yeah. But, fuck, those days are the hard ones. - # No, oh # You've got drama, keep it to yourself # You need help from somebody else # Give me love, you're giving me health. # - I don't see my life slowing down. I feel like I'm living my life a bit unconventionally anyway. I kinda like doing it different to everyone else, but when I find a special someone, I'm gonna keep doing it with them. That's the plan. - # You need help from somebody else. # - You know, adults around here expect us to know what we wanna do. Get out! Get! To know where we're going, but we're looking at them, and it's like, 'What are you doing with your life?' Listen, bro. - BOY: Ice Cream! - It feels like you're under pressure when you're in this town. Or, I don't know, lately it's everybody wants a piece of Axle. - You're just an asshole. All right, stick that shit in my mouth. - I never would have thought I'd be in, like, a relationship, living with my partner only, like, two weeks into it. - # What a lucky girl am I # - I reckon it was about me. - Supporting local content so you can see more of New Zealand on air.