Captions were made with the support of NZ On Air. Www.able.co.nz Able 2022 MUFFLED BEEPING JO PANTS MUTED CRIES JO YELLS Whoa, whoa, whoa! What's going on?! JO SCREAMS Severe placenta abruption. We need to get a line in! JO GROANS OK? Go! Will somebody please tell me what's happening?! Let's go! FOOTSTEPS SOMBRE STRING RECITAL Hello. You all right? Hello, darling. Mummy? Mummy! Mummy?! Mummy, where are you going?! WAVES CRASH ALTER EGO: Were you trying to escape...again? Oh, shut the fuck up! What's that? Nothing. I'm going into the office before the hospital. OK? I'm going to take the car out today. Well, you're not supposed to drive, you know. You might hurt yourself, or somebody else. OK. I'll take a taxi. Sorry. See you later. See you. CAR DOOR CLOSES ENGINE STARTS I like it. You're going to hell, anyway. Taking out the odd pedestrian won't make much of a difference at this stage. MUSIC PLAYS MUSIC STOPS MUSIC PLAYS # Honey, sugar, lover, ever # Baby, this one is for you # Alcoholic, so catastrophic # You gave me something to do. # GULLS CRY SHE RHYTHMICALLY TAPS DOOR SLAMS SHUT DOORBELL LOCK CLICKS Oh. Wasn't who I was expecting. Can I come in? Of course. I'm here to see you. Am I in trouble? Can't wait. How's your head today? Thomas...what have we been up to? Mum! Oh, Sash! Mum, hi! Sash! Why didn't you tell me you were coming? Huh! You all right? I'm...I'm tired, and, um...my head hurts. I shouldn't have come. Mum, here, sit down. Bye, Jo. SASH EXHALES Sash...? Yeah? When you're having a baby... ..you're going to have to depend on that person. So it's... You have to be really sure... ..that... I am sure, Mum. Yeah. Where's this coming from? Oh, Sash! WHISPERS: Fuck! JO SNIFFLES WATER FLOWS What? SHE SIGHS HEAVILY Is there something on your mind? What was I like last year, to you? Hm...you dipped a bit when Finn went to uni, but he is the sun, moon and stars, so... He's not! Oh, I know. Um... Dad was worried about you, I know that, but then you started working for that charity and doing all that amazing stuff. To be honest, you grew last year, Mum. You blossomed. I did? Mm. Oh. You're going to be fine, Mum. You're going to get through this. GULLS CRY SASH KNOCKS ON WINDOW Hi. You really shouldn't be driving. You offering to drive for me? Mum, this is awkward, so I'm just going to say it. Can you not just drop by unannounced again? Has he told you to say that? No! No. Look, for as long as I can remember, you have always... My friends have always loved you, and they'd come to the house to see me and they'd end up spending most of the time in the kitchen talking to you. And I just...I thought with Thomas that for once... I love you, Mum, but can you just stick to people your own age? Please? WHISPERS: OK. SHE SIGHS Oh. AIR BLASTS AND JO EXHALES MUSIC POUNDS DEEP BREATHING SHE GASPS Fuck! Fuck! MACHINE CLICKS LOUD PULSATING LOUD BEEPING FOGHORN AND GLASS SHATTERS SHE GASPS Do you need some help? MUFFLED MUSIC MUFFLED DIALOGUE SHE EXHALES I've been getting bits of memories. I just can't piece them together. And sometimes they're...quite upsetting. But you're getting some memories back, at least. Well, that's good, isn't it? She's making progress. Sometimes I think... I see and hear things, and... I'm not sure if they're real. Hallucinations? They're getting more vivid. And... it's like I'm drowning. And... ..it's very frightening. OK. Well, those aren't a consequence of your head injury, but they can be an effect of your time in ICU. I'm going to refer you to a neuropsychologist. The good news is there's no further bleeding or collection. I can't make any promises about you making a complete recovery. You...you both know that, right? I think you should probably also tell her about fucking Thomas. HER BREATHING FALTERS You OK? Mm-hm. You know what? I think I forgot my phone back there. Why don't you just go off to the office and I will get a taxi? OK. You sure? Yeah, yeah. OK. Dr Cadell. You're back. I want to see my medical records from last year. All of them. Jo, I have another patient in about five minutes. I know it's my right. Can you just please look them up? They're...they're right there. They're not actually, they're with your GP. What is it exactly that you want? It's... ..it's the memories I've been having. JO SIGHS I don't recognise myself in them! I need to know what was my state of mind! Is there something specific that you've remembered? JO SIGHS I can't make sense of it. Was I struggling before I fell? Jo...you're a woman of a certain age. Mood swings, lack of motivation, anxiety. They can be symptoms of depression... ..but also, of the menopause. And yes, for many women, it is a struggle. But for some, it can be a time of reinvention. FAINT CHATTER Hi, Jo. I'm Nick. SHE EXHALES Oh, right. Nick. Hm. Rose mentioned what happened to you. Um...I'm really sorry. Thank you. Could we talk somewhere? I don't remember anything about this place. OK. Sure. SHE SIGHS So I, er...I worked here for several months... ..but then you fired me? It's, er... ..it's very strange that you can't... And you...you leaving wasn't a big deal. We just came to the end of a big project, and, you know... Could you just please fill me in...on everything? Look, Jo, when you first walked through those doors... ..you lacked a little self-belief, maybe. I'm trying to choose my words carefully here. Don't. Just say it. You were unhappy. You were searching for something, and... ..I think you found it here. Is everything OK at home...with Rob? SHE SIGHS Why are you asking me that? Oh, Christ, this is difficult. Um... I think you felt that Rob's...temper was responsible for a lot of things. You said his business had been struggling and the atmosphere between you both was strained. I think you felt restricted by your life. I...think you blossomed working here. ALTER EGO: There's that word again, "blossomed". And I don't think he liked it. WHISPERS: I have to go! Helen! Helen, this is Jo, Jo from the Head-Bangers group. I really need to speak to you right away! I knew Rob had money problems, but they may be worse than I thought! Now, you told me to follow the breadcrumbs, Helen, and I don't like where they've fucking taken me! THUNDERCLAP LOUD THUD AND BRAKES SCREECH SHE BREATHES HARD Ah! Oh, my...! SHE SIGHS THUNDERCLAP SHE WHIMPERS SHE GASPS I opened up the jewellery box... ..and found a charming copper fox. I then could simply not resist to slide him gently on my wrist. I held my hand up in the air admiring his wily stare. I'm sorry when I'm being a bad mummy. SHE SOBS SOFTLY SHE WAILS Stop! STOP! SHE SCREAMS JO GASPS What the fuck...?! Wendy! I...I just wanted to talk to you for a second. I'm really sorry, I'm in a hurry. Can this...? Yeah, it's just that... I was at the nursing home seeing your father. We're actually friends. He was very lonely when your mum died and we... He was not lonely, he had us! Have you been hitting on my father? Look, even if he doesn't know who I am most of the time, he's still a human being, and I am, too! I don't think you've been very comfortable seeing your father over the last few months. I think it upset you watching his demise, and you saved yourself the pain, and there's no shame in that, only in pretending...! BEEPING CONSTANT TICKING SHE SIGHS SHE GASPS SHE GASPS Oh, Jesus, Rob! DOORBELL DOORBELL JO EXHALES Helen! I came straight round. Thank you. You sounded so frightened on the message. It's so good to see you. Come on in. This way. Do you want to have a seat? Listen...there's so much going on here. JO SIGHS Last year, Rob was losing a lot of money, his firm was leaking cash. So he's been very stressed. JO SIGHS And...and the money, the money, it...it's all mine. I inherited it from my grandparents, you see, so... And then I... ..I did something unimaginable. I... ..I did the worst thing anyone can do to their family, with the worst possible person! OK, OK. It's OK. No, it's not OK! I-I don't know what to do! HIGH-PITCHED TONE Shit! Just talk to me. I'm not going to judge you. I think he did it. I think Rob hurt me. LOCK CLICKS Oh, my God! Jo, are you in there? What do I do?! You need to just keep yourself safe. Jo, are you all right? I think we can get out... Who are you talking to? ..through the car. If I can just get this door open! Jo, open the door! I need you to let me in. No, I'm not letting you in! We can't let him in. Jo! Are you sure about this? Go away! This morning, you thought you did it to yourself and...and now you're convinced it's Rob! I need you to let me in. JO PANTS LOCK CLICKS WHISPERS: He'll kill me. ROB BANGS ON DOOR He'll kill me! LOCK CLICKS ROB BANGS ON DOOR How do you know where I live?! Jo! BANGING AND CLATTER ROB STRAINS No! Stay away from me! Helen! SHE GASPS She was right there! No! She was right there! She was right there! She was right there! Jo, what's going on? SHE WAILS Don't do that. Hey. Hey-hey! SHE SOBS Sh. Don't do that. Sh-sh-sh-sh. It's OK. It's OK. It's OK. I love you. I'm right here. I'm here. I'll always be here. BIRDSONG Jo? You OK? Yeah. CAR STARTS Finn. Hello, Dad. It's Jo. I brought you a pie. Ah! It's plum, like Mum used to make. How are you, Finn? I-I was just explaining to Finn that I want to go up in a firework. Grandad says you can have your ashes put in a firework. That's how I want to go out, as well. Out with a bang. Can we not talk about that right now? Oh. She's squeamish. No-one leaves this place unless they're lying flat in a box. Susanne... Dad, I'm not Mum. It's me, Jo. I'm worried about you. Why are you worried about her, Grandad? I don't think she feels loved enough by us. By you, Susanne. I don't think...I don't think that's true. But you need to be a better mother. FINN SIGHS I'll be back next week. Yeah, OK. Finn? SHE SIGHS I'm so sorry for what I did to you and Josh. I didn't mean to hurt you. I was just trying to protect you. I don't need protecting. Bye, Mum. SHE SIGHS So... ..my daughter, Jo. Dad! I know who you are. I've not goddamned idiot. You are the naughty one. I'm your only one. And I'm not that naughty. KNOCK AT DOOR That looks good. She...she used to act out, this one. Sawed her dolls in half and writing on walls and set fire to a cat. I didn't! I didn't set fire to a cat! I'm sorry, I don't speak Danish. I'll just put this in the fridge. JO SIGHS Dad...do you remember I had an accident last month? I fell down the stairs. Oh, my baby! Who did this? I don't know. I don't know what to think. It's like...I can't keep things straight in here! Do you think... ..I could have done something so awful to myself again? SHE SPLUTTERS SHE PANTS GIGGLING # Ring-a-ring-o'-roses # Pocket full of posies # A tissue, a tissue # We all fall down... # Josh. I heard your mum and Ella in the garden, so I just let myself in. Of course you did. GIGGLING # A pocket full of posies # A tissue, a tissue # We all fall down # A tissue, a tissue # We all fall down. # You're out! In the world! Yes, I am. Hi, Ella! Ella, it's Jo. Can we talk? Yeah. Fire away! # A tissue, a tissue # We all fall down. # And we all...get down! Do you remember when we lost Lucas and I was in that really, really dark place? Bounce, Mummy, bounce! Just a minute, Ella, OK? I'm just going to talk to Jo. Look at me, Ella. Just five minutes, OK? Yeah? I... JO SIGHS I have a history of doing dark things, Cathy. # Ring-a-ring-o'-roses # A pocket full of posies... # I did something terrible last year. Hey! I don't understand! I-I don't know what could have possessed me to... Mummy! Ella, it's OK. It's... I... # Ring-a-ring-o'-roses # A pocket full of posies...# I think there was something wrong with me last year. I...I found all these tiny little hidden messages saying "help" to myself all over my house! I used to do that when I was a kid every time I felt numb! Listen, I told you before, you did NOT fall down that rabbit hole. Mummy! Ella, don't bite your hand. OK, sweetheart? Jo, you arranged that amazing charity event! I don't think you were depressed. The last time I saw you, you were radiant. What is it? Is this about Rob? Rob? Mum! Oh, Christ! Ella, it's OK. It's... Oh, Jesus...Christ! ELLA WAILS Ella, it's OK. It's OK. Ella... Ella! Cathy! ELLA CONTINUES TO WAIL What are you not telling me?! Do you want some help, Mum? Yes, please! Do you need some help? I'm just going to get my bag. MUFFLED MUSIC SHE EXHALES Great night, Mrs Harding. Thanks. By the way, you probably should know, your husband's screwing Anna. WHISPERS: Oh. POIGNANT PIANO RECITAL CHAIR SCRAPES ACROSS FLOOR He was fucking someone else?! You didn't tell me?! I suspected, but I didn't know! You should have told me! He denied it! Jo! SOBS: You should have told me. Jo! Jo! SHE SIGHS LOW CHATTER Where is he? Oh, I-I think Mr Harding's gone home. He said he...he might finish early today. He said the secret is, never fall out of love at the same time. JERRY LAUGHS Very good. Excuse me. It's true WOMAN LAUGHS You don't get it? No! One of you's always got to be in love. DIALOGUE FADES How are you, Mrs Harding? Oh, excellent. I'm starting to remember things now, so... fun times for everyone. This is where she sits, isn't it? Where is she?! Where's she gone?! Anna. She left last week. SHE GASPS PHONE CLICKS PHONE CLICKS PHONE CLICKS SHE EXHALES DEEPLY SHE SOBS SILENTLY You don't remember the last time we met, do you? That's a shame. HEAVY BREATHING FAINT CHATTER ROCK MUSIC BLASTS Well, well, well! What have we here? Where's Sash? She ain't here. Sorry. I need to tell her something! Hi, there. Hello, Jo. I need to talk to you. MUSIC BLARES You look like you're having a really bad day, Jo. I need the bathroom. Where's the bathroom? Wrong way. Just a minute. MUSIC BLARES SHE SIGHS I'll get Rob to come pick you up, take you home, eh? Rob? Huh! Rob...doesn't live here any more. As of today. I'm shedding my skin. And if you tell my kids... ..I'm going to feed you to the sharks. I was throwing him out. Yeah. I was really looking forward to what the new year was going to look like. What I was going to do. THEY PANT Like having more sex with you? Huh! WHISPERS: God! What? HE LAUGHS Are you serious? What - you think I'm the sort of man that would have sex with the mother of his pregnant girlfriend? And you're the sort of woman that would go along with that? SHE SIGHS No. Have you been thinking about...? HE CHUCKLES Oh, my God! SHE LAUGHS Yes! Yes! Ah! Yes! ALTER EGO: OK, you fantasised about it. Not great. But your fucking husband went through with it. What are you going to do now, Jo? INSECT HUMS She's pregnant, and you knew that. But did he know you knew? HORN BLASTS INSECT HUMS OWL HOOTS INSECTS HUM SHE GAGS Get out of my fucking house! Subtitles by Red Bee Media